The Light Within
A few months ago when Notre Dame caught on fire, my husband texted me. I couldn’t comprehend his text though it was clear. It was not until I searched the internet and watched a video that I felt the gravity of the fire.
My heart felt a pierce as I watched the spires burning and I cried as I watched Notre Dame burn. I have a special place in my heart for Notre Dame as so many people do. It’s beautiful but also full of a beautiful energy and light. Perhaps this is what spurred my interest to visit France.
During our time in France, we visited Notre Dame in Nice for the first time, Sacré Cœur in Montmartre - another one of my favorites and we enjoyed a concert at Sainte Chapelle in Paris.
At home, Unity has been our church and I love what Unity stands for. But one thing that my mind has been contemplating is the Christ consciousness aspect of Unity and in spirituality.
Alas, I will not ramble on about Christ consciousness or Buddha consciousness but I will say this… During my visits to these beautiful cathedrals, I felt compelled to light a candle and drawn to kneel on the kneeling boards to pray. This is something I would have done 15 plus years ago but not as much now.
Once upon a time, when I left the Christian church, I didn’t want to pray to Jesus anymore. I don’t think I was mad at Jesus but rather all the rules the church set forth.
A memory that tumbles forward is when I used to attend a charismatic church and we were asked to pray and lay hands on a neighbor. I remember laying hands over a boy I had never met and praying for his eyesight. So vividly I can recall his parents asking me how I knew about his eyes as he was to have surgery on his eyes imminently. I believe my response was, the holy spirit.
I asked my husband if he thought anything of my candle lighting and praying and he said he was wondering about it. Ha!
I explained to him that where I reside spiritually right now, I think I’m open to enlightened beings such as Jesus and Buddha and Gandhi. There’s a lot we can learn from them and if the spirit in me is open to these sources, then I am open too.
A funny thing happened when I prayed in Sacré Cœur. I kneeled where there was a bright light coming in from the sun. I like signs and the light called to me. As I kneeled to say hi to God, and consider some kind of dramatic rededication, the light dimmed so I redirected my melodramatic thoughts - to focus on something else… I landed on the light within - the God within. This resonated with me.
Before my trip to France, as part of an experiment I was doing from the book E3, I asked the Universe if we should attend a new church - our Unity is very small and may be on the verge of folding.
One of the churches my family has really enjoyed encompasses Jesus in it’s mission which I wasn’t sure about but now, I’m thinking the answer is Yes.